PekkY

Sunday, March 19, 2006

First of all I want to say Thanks to all my readers out there. Your support gives me inspiration and motivation to keep using my braincells to dig up past history.
-Pek

Dear Diary,
Ever felt like a relationship is about to end? Somehow you just know in the near future the road that you have been walking is the very same road that she cant follow. An inevitable end that sticks in your mind everytime you see her. That end was washed out at the beginning but after sometime and unfortunately the truth began to clear the fog. Long periods of silence during phone calls, nothing to say during the conversation, an element of "bo chap-ness" everytime I saw her. I was starting to take her for granted. This is when the fairy tale ends and when humpty dumpty fell off the wall only to find that no one could ever piece him back together again.
Like a car running out of gas, an empty stomach or when u pang sai u bo sai pang.
To put it bluntly : Feelings about her are running out.

Maybe this was provoked by the chalet we had at the end of our secondary 2 year.
Chrystal's class were having a Class chalet at Sentosa. Her classmates gather for one last time before they are being streamed to different classes the year after. Some did well and moved up the ladder while some remained.
I was of course invited. She said it could get boring and needed my company. My classmate Eu Liang was invited by Joan and schoolmate Mark by Gladys.
Seems more like a group date for the 3 of us instead of some class chalet.
Oh well, all seemed fine. I was greeted by the familiar scent of Chrystal in the late afternoon and soon we were on our way in the monorail. Laughters all around, causal chit chat among the 6 of us. I remember teasing Joan about Eu Liang cause she had a crush on him.

The chalet was rather big, a 2 storey thingy. It was near the beach, I forgot which one, but there was a scary looking infrastruture that looked like an army barrack near by. A kitchen, living room on the first and 3 bed rooms on the second, one masterbed room and 2 smaller ones. I wonder if we were even offically invited cause the rest of Chrystal's classmates seemed surprised at our arrival.
We moved quickly upstairs and locked ourselves in one of the bedrooms where we continued to chit chat.At night there was an event organised, some MINI prom night. Someone will be crowned the best dressed, one male and one female.

During the process of getting ready, we played TRUTH OR DARE.
[Let me sidetrack abit, if I know who the hell created this game, I will personally slap him/her. Its the dumbest, most idiotic game that always seem to entertain the majority whom are those not in question]
Suay Suay I think I was the first one and sadly the last one. Well the dare was to Kiss Chrystal.
I was stunned.

"Pek searches memories of him kissing other people in his memory bank"
"Search successful : 1 entry"
"Old orange images comes out showing Pek kissing his dad ON THE CHEEK good night 10 years ago"
"log ends"

I started laughing, I was like Come on! Someone think of something else PLEASE!This is so Primary school. Then it stuck me, heh Shes my Girlfriend wtf are you waiting for, its nothing to be embarrassed about.
YOU can TOTALLY do this, YOU SHOULD HAVE DONE IT AGES AGO YOU fucking NOOB.
Ok so I took a deep breath, then I started thinking again.

"Pek thinks of Possible Kissing positions"
"Digs up movie kissing scenes : Titanic"
"ERROR~~!"
"Digs up with different kissing technique : 1 entry found"
"FRENCH"
"Evaluating"

While taking my time, my friends got bored. I think Chrystal was also feeling embarrassed, she was sitting next time me but I could not look at her to see if shes blushing cause everytime I do so I keep thinking about the techniques.
So should I enter sideways or should my head be parrallel to hers?
So do I breathe normally?
So where do my hands go?
So do I close my eyes, I heard its rude to stare when kissing.
I am such a loser<---- someone please nail a L on my forehead kkthxbye.

Somebody please help me. Ok so now my friends got bored and Chrystal I think as gone from excited to relieved/disappointed that I am taking such a damn long time. I think 15 min has passed and the dare became "KISS ON THE CHEEK". Phew.

Pek being such a loser who has made an all time high on the noob meter still found himself caught in the same situation as before. You know the kissing pose when ur lips become a circular shap and ur cheeks have been sucked in, I WOULD LOOOK DAMN STUPID. URGH! ZOMG! There are people watching somemore!
My body says go but my brain is sticking its tongue out, THIS IS TAKING FOREVER!
Echos in my mind :
LISTEN UP PEK!
SHES YOUR GIRLFRIEND, DO U KNOW HOW TO SPELL THAT?? G I R L F R I E N D.
THIS IS NORMAL, GET OVER IT

Then my friends started noticing my ears and face turning red, I WAS DAMN SCARED LA.ITS MY FIRST TIME DOING IT *on the cheek =p I kept playing around my comb, on the verge of breaking it. I know its a simple task, buy why cant I just do it??? Everyone was like "what u waiting for". Peer pressure seriously sucks.

30 mintues have passed. I was about to explode, then Chrystal started to fidget.
OMG SHES GETTING BORED TOO, SHES GETTING RESTLESS! I had to do something, PEK HAS TO SAVE THE DAY.

In a flash, maybe 2 seconds or so. I reached over and kissed her on the cheek. Totally catching her off guard, YES! There was even the kissing sound, everyone heard it. Her skin felt soft and warm, OH GOD I DID IT! WHOOOOSH!
Now it was Chrystal's turn to turn red. Everyone was cheering! Woot way to go Pek! Then I do not know why she stood up and went out of the room. Hmmm was it too overwhelming? I didnt really ask her how she felt. Maybe it was something like "OMG WHAT TOOK U SO LONG, I CANT BELIEVE THIS GUY"
Oh well who cares.
Pek awards himself a medal of courage, jumps in the air and did a somersault.

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Opps I think I wrote A little too much, guess I got to write the next part (sad part) next time. Till then, stay tuned!

Pek out!

Shut the Fuck up And listen -8:50 PM