PekkY

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Dear Diary,

Love is like a mountain,
hard to climb,
but once you get to the top
the view is beautiful.

The view simply was heart warming.
To show this, I decided to buy Chrystal a ring. Buying a ring for someone you love isnt something to take lightly. You cant just anyhow at any occassion buy a ring for someone. Its a personal item close to your heart. Giving a Love one such an item allows that person to hold on to a piece of you. This shows just how important she was to me and I wanted her to see that through something material. Something she could see everyday reminding her just how much she meant to me.

Hmmm something GOLD??
LOL I dont really have that much money with me, the best I could ever afford was something Gold plated. But imagine if the gold covering wears out! Plus Gold looks to OLD for me, definitely not what I wanted.

Something with a Diamond on it??
No money. Its not like I gonna Propose to her and even If I bought it, I dont think she would accept such an expensive gift. Better play safe ya?

Sooo I settled for something made of Silver. Then I remember I need her Finger size. Based on Past experience, I evaluated what her finger size might be. I thought to myself "Ok so I held her hand once". Shit.
I was clueless so I requested a friend of mine, Yanling to help me try out the ring. I remember we were going out on a Primary School class outing, to catch up with our Primary school mates so I kind of drag her in the shop to assist me.
Oh well what the heck, if it doesnt fit on Chrystal's one finger, theres still 4 other fingers on her hand to try right?
The salesgirl asked me if I wanted to engrave anything on it. Of course la, but how much will that cost LOL! Ok her name has C H R Y S T A L, 8 letters! Sigh guess I cant really use Pek Kim Yew, I dont think the ring has enough space for the both of us and 9 more letters is going to cost extra. Therefore Pekky it is. The ring was a simple one, silver all around with a spiral pattern on it. Most importantly it has "Pekky <3 Chrystal" on her ring and "Chrystal <3 Pekky" on mine.
To add a Bigger hole to my wallet I bought a rose to hold the ring. Its a fake one DUH, something like those 9.90 flowers u find at toy stores but this one the top part of the flower can be opened to store the ring. Cool right?
I can so Imagine the look on her face when I give the flower to her. I was all set and excited for VALENTINE DAY.

What u expect? I need to give her something right?? dont need crack my head for another present. hahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaha
*ahem ok that besides the point and I am not an asshole/jerk/bastard/fucker.

I was all SET, ready and PREPARED steady bom pi pi. My primary school mates thought it was a romantic gift, I remember Wearing it ever since I bought it and Pauline told me "Pek you so romantic leh". hahaha I was in love and I felt good about the Relationship between Chrystal and me.
Ok so I brought the ring to school during valentine day. I didnt put the ring in the flower cause I think it was too embarrassing. I put it in an apple instead. A FAKE APPLE la, its something my mother got from a jewelary store. A small cute cute apple stored the ring I wanted to show her so much, but I had to wait all the way to after school ends to give it to her. Our recess was different so Meeting her then was out of the question.
I expected she would receive other gifts cause shes popular but I dont care, mine is so going to BLOW the rest away. I played around with the ring, opening and closing the apple casing to see it every now and then during class. I wasnt paying attention to the lessons. My classmates made fun of me of course, trying to take it away from me or digging my bag for it. But the ring was safely kept within the palm of my hand all the while.
My form teacher even asked the guys in the class whether we bought anything for the girls. My name got sabo-ed. "Pek bought a ring for his girlfriend", that made me blush but who cares, I held on to the ring proudly. If I could I would let the WHOLE school know it.

ALl the TENSION and ANXIETY built up till the final school bell. I ran out of class looking for her, only to see her walking quickly towards me. She said she had something on and had to rush up somewhere, I was caught off guard. I spent the whole day imagining different scenarios. I imagined her all smiling and waiting to receive my gift, maybe getting a hug or a kiss along the way. Dream Smashed.
So she said she was in a hurry, I had no choice but to hand over the flower to her.

This is the part that broke my young heart.

I guess she did take a short look at it. Maybe she didnt know that the ring I picked for her was resting within the flower, cause the next thing she did was putting the flower immediately into her plastic bag. Then I expected a hug or something so I asked "how about a hug". She looked around, there were alot of students pouring out of the classrooms so maybe she was a bit embarrassed. She told me "not here". After that we said our Good byes and soon she was out of my sight.

'PIANG'<---- glass breaking sound, in this case my heart.

So I was left standing there wondering what had just happened and what went wrong.

Poor Pek, he spent so much time preparing for this day and his favorite girl just put his gift into her bag and took off without even looking more closely to find the ring. The ring he chose with his heart was left in that flower all the way till she got home when she finally decided to have a look.
She then SMS me to say sorry as she didnt know there was a ring inside.
Sigh, I guess if she had knew that moment meant alot to me she would have stayed just a little while longer.I dont blame her, I was just disappointed. In the end, thats how we spent Valentine's Day, we didnt went out cause it was a school day and her parents didnt permit.

Thats all for today.
More to come, The downward Slide of This relationship.
Stay tuned.
Pek OUT

Shut the Fuck up And listen -11:48 PM