PekkY

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Dear Diary,
Ok I am still at Secondary 2 and I have no plans on stopping yet.Why should I when life was good to me.
It gets me thinking now, What is SO good about getting a girlfriend? I can be a bit Bias in this cause seriously, Pek's love life if rated will get a 0.25/10. With the 0.25 coming from his never giving up spirit and undying efforts. Sucks2beme in this genre of my life. Dont know why I suck at it also, DAMN IT!!!! WHY ME!!!!
*to those ppl that are laughing at me, Fuck you kkthxbye.

Back to my point. Whats so Special about a Girlfriend.

Lets evaluate the activites they usually do:
1)Calling each other and talking about eveything and anything you can possibly find.
2)Going out on dates.
Peks Bias opinion is as follow:
You want someone to call, check your phone book or if you are really despo, try the Newspaper 1900- calls, I am sure there are "hot" girls waiting to entertain you. You can call me but please call my handphone cause I got free incoming calls.
You want someone to go out with, Dont you have friends? What the hell just call me.

Then comes the argument about Hugging, Kissing, holding hands and all the mushy mushy stuff. Ya you can to do all that, unless your partner is not ready and gives you a slap instead or a Kick to the groin. I have no quarrel with that, all the above are great mind blowing orgasmic experiences, espically with the one you love.

Heres comes the BIG BUT...
Is it really that important to have all of the above.
Oh well, I am really bias so I am sorry to all the couples out there. Being reject too many times turned my heart into stone. All hail causal SEX. Sigh, I'm jK.

OK enough of theses useless typing already! Back to Pek's 101.
OOOOOK, SO now I am with Chrystal and No we did not do all of the ABOVE. We only did 2 things, one being the holdng of hands. Dont be an idiot and mock me because We only held hands once.
Dont fucking try to cover ur laughter, it took really alot of guts to hold her hand.
We were going out on a double date, me and Chrystal, Hwa and Joan. Theme of the day was Movies. I remember I wore my Greyish White Billabong Collar Shirt outside and inside was a T-Shirt.
Note to self: Never wear double layer again please, its over doing it and too freaking hot.
Forgot what was Chrystal wearing though. This was one of our first Offical dates together. Wonder why did I agree to let Hwa and company come with us hmmm, It was Chrystal's Idea so I have no choice.
I dont remember which Cinema we went to nor the Movie's name, but I know it was something to do with Baseball and a bunch of kids. Well it doesnt matter anyway, My eyes were on her most of the time.
You know all those TV shows when the bf and gf are in the cinema and the bf will try all ways to hold her hand, the old yawning trick, the hesitation, the sweat flowing TENSION.
Think along that line cause I was going through the same thing. The Yawning trick was out, its too obvious and I scared the person behind may say "Hey Your Hand is Blocking my View" which will totally blow my cover.
So I was just sitting there staring at the screen with the view of her right hand just at the corner of my eye.
"COME ON PEK"
"GOGOGO YOU ARE SO CLOSE"
"OMG WHAT ARE U WAITING FOR"
"ITS EASY COME ON"
My left hand was resting on my left thigh, just inches away from her hand. I dont know if she notice my hand but her hand was resting on the arm rest. Who puts his/her hand flat on the arm rest when watching a movie. Then it stuck me like a slap of shit.
OMG SHES WAITING FOR ME!!! SHES TRYING TO MAKE MY ATTEMPT EASIER!!! COME ON!!!
Wait wait Hold on. What about Hwa?
I forgot about Hwa and Joan, What are they doing??
OH NO, For crying out loud they are already holding hands!!
If there was anytime to panick and act fast that was the time. And then another Slap of shit struck me again.
No wonder her hand was on the rest, she was hoping I will do the same!! How could I ever be so stupid and not notice this. I must have spent 45 minutes thinking whether to go for it or not. Ok I am a Loser SHUT UP kkthx. Hwa good job _!_.
And just 2 Slaps of shit isnt enough for Pek Kim Yew.

The next thing came the WORST, DUMBEST, LAMEST thing I have ever done.
Out come this RIDICULES sentence from my SMLJ mouth from my SMLJ brain.

"err"
"Can I hold your hand"

Dannnnnnnnnnnnng. This is when everyhing turn black and theres a spotlight shining on my ass with the sad pathetic song playing in the background.
And voices like this echoing in my head:
Pek! Can u see the wall infront of you?? GO BANG IT NOW!! NOW DAMN IT DO IT TWICE!!
If theres anything more anti climax, feel free to give me a call.

There must be a sign of disappointment from her, she didnt say yes or no. She just open her hand for me to hold. Ok shes disappointed.
Then comes another Slap of shit, err wait how DO YOU HOLD A GIRLS HAND!! This is when u imagine me jumping of my 20 story HDB and not dying, just 90% paralysed thats all.
How to Hold a girls hand, wait is it like this, like that or like that. Do they even teach this stuff in school. Where has Sex education gone, MOE should change it to "Dating tips" lesson, I could sure use it now.
Wait, hold that thought! Havnt I held hands with a girl before. OH ya, that was in Primary school. OH ya that was during my Japan trip when I held my mother's hand in DISNEYLAND u dumbass.
I could hold back anymore, sigh. I went with the pri school method.
Someone slap me with another pile of shit please thx.
Someone stamp me with a big letter L on my forehead thx.
Chrystal knew that wasnt the way, she changed to the interlocking method immediately.

SIGH.
But after all this EMBARRASSING moments. It was beautiful. I never held another girl's hand like that from that day so I can still feel her touch.

The Gentle Touch of Her Hand
Could make flowers Grow from Sand

Her thumb gently rubbing against my hand, and mine on hers. Simply amazing, I love that feeling, it felt as if holding her hand meant holding her heart as well. We were in our own world by then. Just sitting there, hand in hand, I am lost for words. This feeling cannot be described, It has to be felt. If only I could find enough words to make this paragraph abit longer just to signify that emotion.
I didnt want the movie to end, suddenly time just fast forward somehow. The lights came on and our hands parted. I didnt want to let go, I wanted to hold on to her hand forever.
But it seems forever was too long in the end.

SO we left blah blah blah. Leaving behind my only experience with holding hands.
Till next time then.

Pek OUT!!

Shut the Fuck up And listen -6:25 AM