PekkY

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Dear Diary,
It is strange how we cant simply describe what is Love. Its not something u can quantify and definitely not something u can describe using our 5 senses. When people ask me, (ok i am imagining people asking me), what is love?
A kiss on the cheek, the touch of her hand, a hug, a glance, her head resting on ur shoulders, her tears, her laughter, her smile and even memories. Theses aint just actions or thoughts. Its far more dense than that, so much so that just from theses simple actions, inspired poems, paintings, drama etc. Such a power is so great that its able to reach anyone, anywhere and at anytime. And all you need is a heart.
[OMG this is going to be a GP essay!Dont be gay ah, when I say Heart its with a " ", not the biological term, cardiac pump blah blah blah]
Was my heart Touched by love? Yes. Such an experience is like riding a bicycle or learning how to walk, you can never forget. Thus my friends, if you ask me if I loved Chrystal, I would show you our ring and said yes. Not taking the ring in its material form but a ring infused with our history and our feelings for one another.

Hmmm It should be the beginning of secondary 2 now. I remember during the december of Sec1 when I was coming back from Malaysia I received a message from her.
"Do you know what day it is?"
I was puzzled lol, I tried thinking really hard. This is one sensitive issue!! NEED to get it right!! Her mom's birthday, wait was it her sister's? or her dad's? Have we been together for 1 year already?? wait we were together only recently!! Fuck which one should I choose kns. I gave up and threw a wild guess. I forgot what answer I gave but it doesnt matter, I got it wrong on the second and third try also. Finally she told me.
"Its our 100th days together"
REALLY?!?!? Do girls have to be so detailed omg! How I know it was today! I already had trouble remembering my friend's birthdays, telephone numbers plus my school work. I wonder what she must have felt at that time. The beginning of a relationship is usually very superficial and getting on her bad side is not something I want to do. From that day on, I kept count, I even put the date as my handphone password LOL. Till today I still remember the dates, sigh...

Seconday 2 came and went. Ask a student if he likes to wake up early in the morning to get to school, most likely IF THEY ARE NORMAL, he/she rather have just 5 MORE MINUTES under the covers. I was different, I woke up with a smile, at that time I was no longer going to school to study, I was going to school to see her. I started waking up even earlier than usual, looking in the mirror to make sure I look neat and tidy. As I step out of the car in the parade square I knew she would be there looking down from the balcony from the 4th Floor.
After school I would go look for her outside her class and we would hang out for a while before walking her to the bustop. Upon reaching home I would call her, at night I would reply her postcard that she gave me today. I poured everything, I was totally into her.
But course as I mentioned earlier I ran out of stuff to say. I solved it by thinking of stuff I wanted to discuss with her beforehand and writing it on a notepad. On the way home I would recall some of the events that happened in school and tell her all about it. Sometimes I call her friends to find out what was happening in her class so I could talk with her about that too.
Saying those 3 words "I love you" became easier and easier at the end of every conversation.
I didnt really thought of it then, but she seem to be holding back. Most of the time when we talked, usually I was the one talking. I felt she was not really opening up to me, maybe my topics were boring or what. But I didnt confront her about this, I thought maybe its because of her character, being quiet and all. Come to think of it, maybe I should have confronted her about it.
Nevertheless I still enjoyed hearing her voice, offering her a listening ear to her complains, although I think some of it went out the other ear. Her voice was so adorable on the phone, then again, she isnt perfect till she became my girlfriend.
Its funny how we talked about almost anything that came to mind and the way she said she loves me, I can never get enough off. Sometimes when she said it softly I would pretend not to hear that forces her to repeat.
Guess these are just signs of a couple. I wonder if I became popular in school because of her. It seems more and more people are getting to know me as Chrystal's boyfriend. I started to know people from secondary 1 and 2, even people from the upper secondary. The network in fairfield is off T3 connection, the word gets around really really fast. Soon I wasnt just Pek Kim Yew anymore, I had a tag on my shirt that says "Pek is attached to Chrystal"
I enjoyed the attention, who doesnt want to be known in school anyway. I think that was when I decided to be a prefect. WAIT NO, I decided to be a prefect when our form teacher walked in to ask for the class to elect Candidates to become prefects. Me and Eu Liang thought of a plan on the spot to norminate each other! I was thinking, IMAGINE PEK AS THE HEADPREFECT, siam ah tua le gong lia liao!!
Of course I got throught the interview, who didnt anyway?? All the dumb standard questions that gave rise to politically right answers.
This was my PEAK, being attached to a wonderful girl, being in a position of POWER among the student ranks and with ownage grades. What possibly can beat that. I was THE MAN! <--- let me hao lian please, dont pour cold water
I remember my first assigment as I was assigned to this class for morning assembly. Asking people to line up was a chore in the morning. IMAGINE you are a student, EARLY IN THE MORNING, you are feeling so SIAN, and here comes an asshole with a tie asking you to "PLEASE MOVE IN", "WHY IS UR HAIR SPIKED UP", "TUCK IN UR SHIRT", "SHOW ME UR NAILS!". If I were the student I wont give a damn or at least have a 5 minute lag time.
I looked at the white board in the Prefect's room and To my horror I was incharged of some Secondary 4 tail end class. OMG steam! I was expecting vulgarities, cant be bothered attitude, and me running to the teachers for help with unlawful students. I approached the class with caution, with little weight in my feet to facilitate my quick exit. I signalled the class to move in, no use. I walked further down the roll to tell the rest, no effect. I AM DOOMED, I was still under probation, If i make such a mistake its GG for me.
Just when all seem lost, one guy suddenly out of NO Where said. Aint you Chrystal's Boyfriend? I said yes and at the same time everyone just stare at me. Then I got whispers, "so its you ah". OMG this is worst, I think I just stepped on a land mine.
The nxt thing that happen was totally unexpected, one guy just put hes hand around me and said. "you better treat her nicely ah"
Can this be? LOL I think I was getting the "why didnt you say so" thingy. Everyone in the class became friendly with me. They even agreed from that they on to move in when I asked them to. Of course I didnt wan to test my limits with them so I pretty much left their attire on the edge between acceptable and unforgivable.

OK this is the end for today! MORE TO COME on the good times and the beginning of the BAD TIMES in the next episode of Pekky's 101. TIll then.

PEK OUT!

Shut the Fuck up And listen -1:52 AM