PekkY

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Dear Diary,
I know you guys have been looking forward to this episode of Pek's 101, or Pek's lol if you want to call it.
Actually lower secondary was my High of my short life span in FMSS. I had many good friends, fantastic grades, good behaviour but most important I had a girl ^^ I dont think I have the right to call her my ex-girlfriend cause I didnt confess to her in the beginning, we were just err "POOF" together. Kind of strange but I was young la, how I know wtf I was suppose to do. Although memories of her are slowly fading from both my heart and my mind, there are just some details you can never forget even after so long. Was she my first love? Yup she was. My first taste of sweet innocent love. She was the first person I ever said those 3 words "I love you" and the first girl I kissed (on the cheek LOL, DAMN IT~! I am such a loser). Unfortunately, shes also the girl I always wanted to say sorry to and I regret many of my own doing. Looking at her picture now ( I really am ), her smile and her smell I can still fondly remember. She used to spray some perfume that I find hard to resist smelling her hair. I also remember tears, those watery droplets that flowed down my cheeks late at night when everyone was asleep after we broke up and that was the time when love songs was the last thing I wanted hear.

"Blurred vision
A taste of tears
Lonely days
And nights of years;

Constant thinking?
No answers found?
Thoughts in circles?
'Round and 'round;

Memories past
Relived?each one;
And sorrow for things
...Never done."

If you ask me 20 30 or 40 years down the road, I can safely say I will still be able tell you her name. Chrystal.
Not really a common name lol, its the H that makes her name stood out. Just like among all the perfect crystals around, that flawed one with the H simply outshined every single one of them.

Lets start from the beginning shall we?

Hmmmm, I got to know her from a friend. At that time a classmate of mine had a Girlfriend in Secondary one. OK la, why dont I just say the names, its much easier. Hes name is Hwadianto and her name is (shit I forgot), Joanne?? Oh at that time I was in Secondary 2 and the girls were in Secondary 1. After school, He always go to the top level where all the secondary 1 classes are. And so of course we being good friends, me charles and Hwa ( some even mistaken me for an Indoesian), we tag along too.

Naturally I got to know Joanne and her friends, Chrystal being one of them. Ehhh She didnt really talk much when we were hanging out with Joanne. The talkative ones were Joanne herself and Gladys. I notice she was always standing either behind or away from us, how could she even talk when the other 2 girls talk like machine guns. I also didnt talk much, I let the love birds do all the talking while I just stand one side and give my comments once in a while. I guess it started as a joke, when Hwa will joke about me being interested in Chrystal, maybe because we both were the quiet ones.

But this dragged on for days, what started out as a joke made me notice her even more. I mean whats there not to like about her, shes cute, gentle and I absolutely love her perfume smell LOL. Then one day, I think it was both Joanne and Gladys, they cornerd me and asked if I really liked Chrystal. I didnt hesitate, I said yes.
There are some facts that I wasnt aware at that time I said Yes. One BIG one being, she was attached at that time. Marshall was his name. He was tall, skinny and had his pants worn high, quite a dork haha. Anyway, I heard that she was into him for a very long time. Now I am in the picture, Things must have changed. Soon my ears been picking up news of people comparing between Marshall and me, seeing which one being more compatible. Of course and sadly for Marshall, I was leading the polls, secretly I pretent not to know la, but in my mind I was make funny faces and jumping around. Chrystal was also beginning to lean in my direction.

Then came the daunting task of how the hell do I break the news to Marshall. Everyday was the usual after school, we hang out and talk, Joanne and Gladys were thinking of a plan. They turn to me of course, but Pek has no experience in goping other ppl girlfriends, Pek is a Noob at Relationships and Pek has no balls at that time. So that task bounced around and fell into the hands of my other classmate, Caleb!
I was relieved to have someone else do the dirty job, Caleb was choosen cause they were both from the Boys Bridge and were friends too.
Yay now theres no extra between us now, I like her and she likes me, TADA! Pek and Chrystal were together at last. It was sort of like a silent agreement and mutal understanding that we belong with each other.

The feeling was Great, I dont know how to put in down in words. Having someone to call your own is really a wonderful feeling, I dont know about those other couples but when I was with her, I felt more complete as a person. We began talking everyday after school, even when we went home we called each other and talk for hours till my mother come banging on my room, ending each call with the 3 words "I love you".
The first time I said it over the phone got my adrenaline pumping, I was so nervous, I was scared but yet I wanted to say it to her so much. Then I just made a split second decision to just be brave and proclaim my love to her. You can sense my anxiety cause this was what I said exactly.

"Chrystal you know what" <---- this was when I made the decision
"I love you" <--------YES I DID IT OMG!!!
She did the same thing to me haha. I was over the moon.

My mother threatened to Listen to my calls or pull out the plug if I didnt stop talking. Maybe that was the first mistake I made, calling her everyday and talking non stop. After a few months U find you are left with nothing much to say lol, I practically told her half of my life story already. But it was fun talking to her, listening to her voice was heavenly. This was just the beginning stages, I guess we were both enthu about it, both of us in a world of our own. We both got like the perfect image of each other.

We wrote postcards to each other almost everyday. She loved postcards, it became a daily routine to pass each other our replys. My handwriting SUCK to the core, U dont know how many postcards I wasted drafting the letters to her. I threw away so many till I end up writing them on rough paper first before transferring. My handwriting LOOKS exactly like PRIMARY SCHOOL penmanship. My lettering were straight when suppose to and curved when supposed to. NO connecting lines, each letter is well defined and with much force, written down. I even wasted the limited edition A1 postcards that I didnt even give her because my handwriting was just to ugly for humans to read.

Quite a fairytale ya? Theres so much more , I havent even finished the good part.Oh well I got to stop here now, This entry getting abit too long haha. Ok till nxt time!! More coming up!! dont go away!!!

PEK OUT

Shut the Fuck up And listen -11:09 PM