Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Dear Diary,
First I want to say how sorry I am about updating my blog, I was busy with Chinese New Year and other off-line stuff. OOOOOK, where was I??
Secondary School life...
*sigh*
I think within this 4 years I have grown more than I had ever did. Be it mentally or physically,I grew by leaps and bounds. I guess its because my mind is starting to be more aware of who I am, I start to be more aware that theres still a Me without my parents. Maybe its because of puberty LOL, all the increase in testosterone makes PEK more gung ho. How did I know I was going through puberty?? Well I became more hairy and had a permanent sore throat that changed my Ku niang voice forever. I became more well versed with the vulgar languages, new hair styles and NO MORE POWER RANGER BAGS. My self awareness override almost everything, Pimple outbreak FUCK, HIPSTER pants OMG. SOCKS? LOL u cant see mine.
Peer pressure can cause wonders, both in good ways and bad. I had to admit, it was because of Peer pressure than changed me. Always on the look for what is the IN thing, I started to catagorise people. Losers, Twits, Noobs, fuckers, suckers, sluts, Chio, Cute, Suckups, act cute, act smart, cannot make it, DAMN UGLY, bitchy... the list goes on. We know who these people are and we try so hard to stay in the good books of the people we know. I was afraid of being one of the Losers, fuckers, bastards and that fear changes my attitude, even today. I am sure No one wants to be the bad guy, who wants to go through 4 years of secondary school with the word "loser" stamped on their foreheads. I know some who have and I feel sad for them, on the other hand I am thinking, better them than me.
These 4 years is also the period that we made many friends, some continue being some of my best friends. Girlfriends, Boyfriends, all shallow relationships based on 90% looks, of course there are special cases. Branded stuff, whos got them and who dont. With this details we end up labelling people. It may sound wrong but we are all guilty of it one way of another, talking behind peoples backs, LIES. We became more sinful than we ever was till that point.
Parents?? heh, my friends are my family. Hack I even spent more time in school than at home. To be honest I care more about what my friends think than what they think. What do they know anyway, they are after all of an older generation. Sad, but true.
GIRLS, wooo they have grown too didnt they, I noticed ^^.
But its all cool, part of growing up, so they say. You can turn either way, either you become a better man, or you become shit, a loser with no character. I hope I am the formal. All these trails never ends, but how u stood by is very important. Being self conscience is one think, being self confident is another. Looking back, I can safely say with a smile that I have grown to be a better person, can you?
I am abit worried for the new generation though, I even heard primary school children scolding each other, they throw FUCK at each other like FUCK. They play computer games, visit lanshops SO young, too young I feel. NO childhood.
Lets start from the beginning shall we? ORIENTATION. What in GODs name is that, that word is even longer than the longest word i seen which is RESTAURANT. WTF does that mean! I was damn blur, all i remembered was hating it alot, I didnt even do much. All I did was follow the group. Ask me to sing song? NO way man. Dance? If I know how to show the middle finger I would. Ran here and there playing games? Ok la, you all go first, I will catch up. LOL, i was quite anti social. I even made a promise to myself not to talk to anyone unless they talk to me first. I didnt know anyone in my class, I was so timid. Break the ice? To hell with it, I am happy cold blooded.
And like all orientation, the food sucks, chicken rice. I dont know what is it with functions that must include chicken rice. Poor chickens getting cut up for us to be disgusted. The only thing i enjoyed was the milo at night. Bathing?? OMG I dont wan to comment. Sleeping? On the table where else, I didnt had a sleeping bag, SOO COLD AT NIGHT!!
Of course I didnt stay like a stone throughout la, the problem with orientation is that no matter how Du Lan u feel, at some point of another, you will join in, even for a tiny extent. Each class had to do a small skit, I remember there were arguments about something. All I know was that Timothy (the indian one) was invloved and he asked me if he should forget about the arguing and just help them. I think I gave him a text book answer. Oh well we won in the end, Our idea was so original and our actors like ZP all look so cute that time. All the A class or B class people's performance cant even compete with our leg hair, they SUCK. No wonder our class bonding is so strong even till now, we started early ^^ I am really thankful I was in that class, No not because I always OWN them in studies but because they are really a good bunch of people.
I had a lot of fun with them, But I will tell you another time LOL. Secondary one wasnt really that interesting, I was just a bit shocked that the canteen food was so expensive hahaha. Being in a Mix school was all good too. I dont know about the rest, but I became more well mannered because I was around girls. More of a gentleman ^^ Of course theres always that hope that a strong wind will blow up their skirts, but other than that haha it was all ok. Theres still that invisible rule that guys and girls cant touch each other cause its a BIG NO NO(dont think dirty pls)and the sky will fall on our heads or something if we did.
Thats all folks, More sharing coming up!! So much more shit to come. Stay tuned ya??
PEK OUT~~!
Shut the Fuck up And listen -12:53 AM
