Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Dear Diary,
"So many years in one yesterday"
Looking back those yesterdays still engraved in my mind, flipping back those pages....
FUCK la, I am not dead, KNN like a cb old man.. yadayadayada
*ahem
Ok back to what You all been waiting for!!! Now who says children in primary school can experience love?? They are just to stupid to know what it is, or wtf they are suppose to do in the first place. Love in the eye of a Singaporean child "SOMETIMES" "MAYBE" "USUALLY" can only be found in novels, television and movies. Well reality makes sure that in this life we live in, we are the script writers soooo whoever we like, love, want to be with is up to us to step up, CONFESS and finally hope it all ends happily. Well HOW THE FUCK A PRI SCHOOL KID knows all this?? How they know that love can be so simple and yet so complicated at the same time, or HOW THEY KNOW ABOUT SEX (unless they err watch porn or something) <---- just for the record, dont mix the 2 ya? sex doesnt always mean love and love doesnt always mean sex. Well but if you are two of legal age then I nothing to say la, just be smart to take the precautions. Like Robbie Williams once say "a man only has enough blood to either go to his penis or his brain" STOPPPPPPP! I am getting out of point. *ahem Well Pek Kim Yew was an innocent boy then, hes affection for girls are of course innocent. No hes not a playboy or a 2 timing bastard. Hes just a boy that found himself caught in sometime he never felt before, to actually like a girl. Hmmmm I think its going to be a bit sensitive to I decided to change the names (dont worry they are quite obvious) Lets talk about "Devil" Shes a quiet person, very soft spoken, fair chinese girl. Too bad i dont have any pictures of her now. I havent seen her for a while also. Well she always speak in chinese LOL, dont worry i understood what she was saying. But she has a problem speaking with English i feel, everytime she speaks english, its like so uncomfortable for her. Her chinese on the other hand is like second nature to her. I think she was the class rep during primary 5 and 6. Sigh i dont really know if my feelings for her were true or not, its just that seeing her makes me feel happy and when you are troubled or something, all you need is to gaze upon her. Her radiance is so soft and soothing, like a soft bed that u just sink into. Of course at that time I didnt know how to pen my feelings down, but I sure know how to show that I had a thing for her. I think it was after PSLE there was this celebration at one of my classmates house. Typical game = truth or dare. I didnt wan to tell the truth so i chose DARE WAHAHAHAHAHA. DARE = go to the person u like and sit next to her! Ahh thats easy i thought, I just walked over and sat next to Devil LOL. A bit direct but the effect was there?? All she did was laugh so I dont know what that meant anyways. But she of course surely didnt have Pek on her mind, I think at that time she was totally into another guy in my class. Thats besides the fact that she told me once that I was among the best looking guys in the class (LOL those other guys must really sucked). Talking about this guy, oooo hes popular, i even thought he was good looking at that time, center parting and all. He hit puberty early so he had the manly low voice that Pek doesnt. Hes a nice guy however, a strong steady kind of guy, sigh...how i compete with him!! I am JUST Pek and hes... If i had a time machine would i go back and change all this? make her like me? I think not, I wont know what to do anyway. The last time I saw her was during some class gathering, we went to her house to watch "my sassy girl" I hope shes doing fine now, I always wondered if she liked me LOL hmmm maybe thats abit to far fetched. OH wells as long as i remember her... NEXT Is there even a next?? Like I said, Pek isnt those that have a flowery histroy of boy like girl history. I guess when I really like a girl, I really do. It takes a long time for me to like another after one. Dont know if its good or bad lol. Maybe because there was always no closure, like Devil knows I like her but i guess she didnt really reject me or I guess I was too of a coward to really chase her. So those feelings I had for her was dangling there for like 3-4 years of my primary school life. Hey what was love to me then anyway, i got other kid stuff to worry about, or my mother finding out I was spending time with a girl rather than my studies. Maybe my feelings for her wont that deep after all,hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. Wait I think there was a time I liked "Diasy" <--- cover up name. She was cute lol, i remember her changing hairstyle from long to short, so adorable ^^ What i liked about her then was that she was very lively and bubbly, always talking. Shes a very fun type of person, when you are with her you will never go bored. Shes short so that makes her very hug-able? Thinking about it now, i feel like Hugging her now and tell her what a wonderful friend she is. I am not the type of guy that talks alot and shes the opposite, so opposites attract? But its more of a crush la, like a short period of time, those shallow kind of puppy love. Shes still part of my life though, Dont know why we have this amazing affinity to end up in the same schools, Do you know we were born from the same hospital? LOL maybe shes connected to my life somehow hahaha. Well I am heading to army so she cant follow. HOW ABOUT GIRLS THAT LIKE ME?? I heard there was one, during lower primary, shes from Hong Kong. Errr shes not very errr good looking, What i remember is that she looked like those bird character in the warner brothers classic cartoons. The other more interesting one was this girl. What should I call her? Ling? Ok Ling was in the same class as me for many many years, even in the same sec school and SAME SEC CLASS during upper secondary. Hahaha shes another stalker o.O She sat beside me during one year of primary school, I forgot. Thats when she liked me she said. But she didnt reveal this then la, I only found she liked me at that time during secondary school when I accompanied her back home and we were having lunch at the coffee shop at Bukit Purmei. Theres more to her hahaha, but I will only reveal this in the future so i wont repeat myself *hint --------------OKOKOK THE END FOR THIS PRIMARY SCHOOL SEGMENT------------------------- Other NEED to know about my Pri school life:My neighbours up and down all are my classmates before. Dont know how to spell the chinese guys name, hes YQ. The other is my GOOD friend back then Salleh. We do everything together man, go buy potato chips after school, we were like brothers.I used to wait for him to go home everyday, even when he had PA duty to keep the mics and stuff after evening assembly. But i felt so bad taking his digimon cards, that day i asked if I could see his digimon card collection, he said ok and came to my house to show me. There was an unwanted pile he showed me, he asked if i wanted any. I SAID I WANTED ALL LOL, he gave me though i think there was regret in his eyes. I AM SOOO SORRY! I STILL HAVE SOME OF THEM! I miss my Primary school, most of the teachers that taught me already left and thats y i stopped going back during teachers day. To my other primary school buddies : RACHEL i saw u at ACJC open house and u IGNORED ME!! ALL THE BEST TO THE REST!! I forgot the school song though hahaha. RADINMAS PRIMARY SCHOOL Work and Play
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